there it is again
Mood- bitchy
Music- So Long Sweet Summer (Dashboard Confessional)
Reading- Catcher in the Rye
I'm feeling moody again. I find myself getting weirder and weirder. I don't really have much to complain about really. Life's just fine... But well, I just don't feel so good these days. Shopping, alcohol, chocolates- they all don't work. I thripled my situps tonight, and did 300 reps. You know something's terribly wrong when you tire yourself silly like that and yet don't feel any pain. Heck, I don't even feel tired.
I've tried practically everything to make myself feel better... but that depressing feeling just keeps coming back. It's taking its toll on my mind, and I have enough shit to worry about.
So right now, I'm just consoling myself by thinking about Christmas hols. I'll FINALLY be back home again. I miss my Mom's cooking. Cold cold "real" winters where you can't feel your hands. Speaking straight English with old high school friends. Driving around the island, while listening to hiphop music. MANGO, ZARA and Debenhams sales. Marks and Spencer's tea cakes. Turkey. Corny parties where you know everyone. Gifts. Watching DVDs all day. Hot chocolate. Snuggling up under comforters. I even miss doing house chores! Running around with my sisters. Fighting over nothing. Grocery shopping in Geant....
Being with my family.
Now that's happiness right there.
Funny how I always wanted to get myself off that island, and I did, when I moved here for college. But now even if I have all the freedom that I want, I always seem to want to go back. You really don't know what you've got till it's gone, and yeah, there really is no place like home.
December 15... i feel happier thinking about it.
 
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