A series of unfortunate events have been happening lately, and I'm not always in the best of moods, but hey, like I always say, shit happens. I get into odd manic-depressive states where I lose the drive completely to do anything. I sleep a bit too often, just to keep my mind off things, and I have days when I turn into a pig and eat myself to a heart attack, but then, there are days, when I hardly eat at all.
I think I have reached the point where I'm numb already. Pretending has become second nature to me, and it's easier for me to smile and pretend to be happy, when I'm actually not. Not completely anyway. I read this line, "Return to Innocence," the other day, and yeah, maybe that's the solution to everything. I should just stop complicating my life, and start on a blank slate. Take whatever lessons I've learned, and take care of myself more.
In other news, I just enrolled myself for driving lessons! FINALLY! I have been putting it off for the longest time, because I'm pretty sure I'll turn into a bundle of nerves when I'm on the road and controlling a bomb on wheels. Hopefully, I'll learn to overcome this fear of driving. I mean, I HAVE TO learn someday right? Alot of people though, seem to be even more scared of the idea of ME driving than I am. My sister once said blankly, "You can't drive! You'll probably get a heart attack once you hit a bush!"
We'll see.
We're also moving out of our Katipunan apartment by the end of the month. Which is why I'm in a hurry to learn how to drive now. I'll be moving to our house in Caloocan, and well, let's just say, I'm too lazy to commute every single day to UP. (Even though it really isn't that far). I'll miss living in Katipunan though. Now I'll be forced to really go on a diet because we don't live near fast food establishments. I'll miss drinking at Meatshop on a weekly basis, and I'll miss taking the advantages of living in Katipunan for granted. Sooo many memories... I'll also miss living with my favorite people! I'll miss trespassing into their room and borrowing their stuff. I'll also miss spur of the moment gimik sessions with my 'default' gimik buddies, catching movies at Gateway, dinner at Eastwood- all on a regular basis. The past three years of living in Katipunan with THEM was pure bliss, but well... all things DO have to come to an end.
I just didn't expect it to come so soon. :'(
 
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